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I would tell them,
no one deserves to be put through that much
no matter how annoying they are.
And if they had to go get it out,
it would get them away from me anyway,
if they were annoying, haha

Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaurs, and it was hilarious :P
Scrat, Diego, and Sid are my favorite characters :D
hahaha

Seattle, WA--because my 2nd book that I'm writing uses Seattle as it's setting, also because I want to see the space needle and all of the "bad weather" they have up there, I'd like to actually live there because I'd much rather live in cold weather than hot weather. Think about it, when you are cold, you put more layers on, when you're hot, what do you do? Get naked? Then what? Rip your skin off? Not too smart.

New York City, NY--because New York has always seemed so interesting, I'd like to visit the Apple store, Times Square, etc. It seems so facinating, ahh, the city :)

Norfolk, VA--because it is setting of my 1st ever novel and I'd like to see the place so I could really get a sense of what it's like living a normal day there.

Does the Snuggie count?
I don't care if it does or not
Who the...
why would you want that?
"Oh I want to be warm and use my hands!!"
Wouldn't your hands be cold too?
Think people, it's a backwards robe
Don't pay so much money for something that you can just turn around

Nancy Drew :D
Mostly because of the random characters
George, who I liked best
and that overweight chick that was alway complaining..haha
Bravo to Nancy Drew for dealing with that chick and not slapping her when she got tired of it
haha
I would've :D
haha

I believe I would have to go with Italian, because of my Vegetarian cuisine...
They have so many choices...so, yeah
and Olive Garden Salad?
uhh...yum?!
duhh :)

I've often tried to forget you
All tries unsuccessful
Again this beating heart has no stop
My yearning want is unpredictable
As I try to figure out what I'm doing wrong
It seems like everythign I do, it's not enough
And if you actually start to date that evil witch,
If you aren't already,
It'll hurt but I know you'll throw her away
Which is kind of what she deserves
After all of the drama she's put me through
She was one of my trustworthy friends
Even after this incedent, I faked a smile
Like I didn't know what was happening
When in reality, it was eating me alive
I just wish you could know how much better I am than the other girls

FOR HIM:
Now that I'm away from you for a few weeks,
I feel at peace with my loving soul.
I tire from longing...
The rest from your gorgeous eyes is just what I need
I need to stop this crush
because this crush will crush me
and lead to heartbreak, I've been here before
Please don't crush my soul
the raw feeling of my hear being ripped out of my chest is too much for me.
Please don't throw it back like many others have.

FOR HER:
Now that I'm away from you for a few weeks,
You do not corrupt my peace
You don't make me quake with fear that he will pick you over me
The rest from your negative and awful personality is just what I need
You are nothing more than an obstacle in my life
Don't try to overpower me
You won't disruppt me, you won't corrupt me, you won't discourage me.
I don't have to worry about what you do with him behind my back
I don't have to worry about you
He'll throw you away,
Which is just what I need

I thought I could trust you.
I guess I was  wrong.
Girls, hold on to your secrets,
Because there's a backstabber on the run.
I told you I liked him.
I gave you my trust.
Wow, what a fool I was.
Can't trust a slut that can't close her legs,
Even to keep a friend.
I guess you're so rude that you can't back off.
I told you my crush,
because you were "dying to know"
You were my friend, I could trust you,
So I told you...
Big
Mistake.
So a few weeks later,
To my mere surprise,
People ran around saying that you liked my crush.
Wow...blonde, skinny...
Hmm..I wonder how this will turn out...
Then to find out he liked you back.
I went home and cried my eyes out.
Mascara marks on my pillow
They permentally reminding me of a boy I'm in love with
And a person that I can't ever trust again.
You talk to my other friends about how he likes you,
And how you might go out with him.
Then they congradulate you on how you finally found someone.
Yeah, congradulations,
The skinny whore always gets the guy.
But it's not that I don't like you because you are skinny.
Oh no..
More along the lines of...
You're nasty...
I don't like you...
You can't be trusted...
You're a backstabbing friend...
Oh yeah, and you're nasty..
I don't want anything to do with you anymore.
You are a tramp.
So walk away, because I don't want to see your face again.
Oh, but not before you pull the knife out of my back.
You disgust me.

The heartbreak is back
I found out this boy that has stolen my heart makes fun of me
But the feeling I have for him will not let go.
My heart that has been beaten and stomped on, still beats for him
It's like I can't let go for anything.
My heart yerns for him
Every need for him, I feel is useless

So my words for him:
You've had sex with a girl that is bigger than me
You've had sex with girls uglier than me
You've had sex with girls that are posers and fakes
What's wrong with me?
Tell me.
Say it like a man.
My heart that you have torn apart, stepped on, spit on, laughed at...
It still beats for you
How does that make you feel?
You don't care
Not one little bit.
Thanks alot


Why do I still love him?
It's not that easy to get over something as strong as this feeling is.

Every girl has that dream.
With the castles and kingdoms, knights and dragons, princesses and princes, heros and heroines.
I even had them.
But now I don't.
My dreams are more recent and out of place.
I dream of that boy that runs through my mind.
He's the reason I draw all of those stupid hearts on my paper.
He's everything in summer dreams that fill your head with smiles.
I looked at him as a friend, then realized I loved him.
Before I met him, I never knew what it was like to see someone and smile for no reason.
I want to be the one he points to around all of his friends and says "That's her"
...Have you ever been talking about that one person and catch yourself with a huge smile on your face?
I love that feeling.
I never knew what it was like to have my heart skip a beat...until he looked at me.
And I'm so scared to tell him how I feel
because I don't know what he'll say.
Will he laugh? Will he roll his eyes? Will he ignore me completly?
Or will he smile? Will his eyes glisten? Will he look at me and say, "Finally. I've been waiting so long. I love you too"?
That's the thing...
we are so afraid to care too much in fear that the other person doesn't care at all.
And I know he knows my name.
So I can't say "He doesn't even know I exist."
Because he does, he's called me by name.
All I know,
Crushes are dangerous, butterflies in your stomach, your heart skipping a beat, that can't be safe.
It's not that easy to tell that person how you feel.
I'll admit this though,
I'm in love with a gorgeous boy with sparkling eyes, a stunning smile, funny, nice, and serious when he needs to be
Now tell me what I do when I have that to worry about
And it's not just a crush, it can't be
because crushes don't make you feel this way.
And I don't want him to know I feel this strongly about him.
So many things to say, but I am limited.
And it all started with a smile<3

"Love is great!" they say
"I love him."
"I love her."
But what happens to that when it's over?
They come to me, like I have all the answers.
"You are so lucky, heartbreak hurts, I'd rather be single like you than have to feel this!"
Really? Would you really? No, you just wouldn't
You don't know how it feels to know only how to love your family.
You don't know how it feels to cry yourself to sleep, every night.
You don't know how it feels to have all of your friends have relationships and you've never had anyone.
You don't know how it feels to not have anyone to hold.
You don't know how it feels to always, constantly wonder what's wrong with you.
Heartbreak hurts? I don't know? Don't ever say that to me again.
Ha, I don't know how bad heart break hurts? Again, ha.
Hm, well seeing that I've never had anyone to love, to hold, to be myself with, I guess you'd think that, huh?
No, I feel unwanted, useless, ugly, stupid, a waste of life and space, BROKEN.
All I want to know is what's wrong with me? Just tell me.
Do I smell? Am I too ugly? Am I too stupid? Am I too smart? Am I too fat? Am I not fat enough? Am I annoying? Am I too shy? Just tell me.
When I hear songs about how great love is, it makes me feel like the artists that wrote them are trying to use them to stab me over and over, with repetition, straight through the heart.
I only know how to love my family, my friends, my pets, my charished items.
I've never been able to say, "Yes, I love him; and he loves me back."
I've never had a boy come up behind me and tell me he loves me.
I've never had anyone to hold hands with and walk down the hall.
I've never had anyone to snuggle, hold, hug, or kiss.
I've never had a boy to point at me around all of his friends and say "that's her"
I've never had anyone.
Period.
I cry myself to sleep EVERY SINGLE NIGHT.
Sure, you can read this and say, "she still doesn't know how it feels to be truely hurt."
To be truely hurt?
Do you think it doesn't hurt to see something you want so bad walk down the hall everyday and not be able to have it?
Do you think it doesn't hurt to be surrounded by boys and girls holding hands and kissing.
DO YOU THINK IT DOESN'T HURT TO BE UNWANTED?
Yeah, and I don't know what heartbreak feels like.
Shut up, you have no clue.